Between Logic and Love

Today, 22nd September 2014

Feel glad, new day. It's sunny. Extremely hot, actually.

Here come some names in my head.

Boys. Girls. Friends. Family. Ex. (Sighs)

Suddenly I remember one name. A guy. Who I used to love very much.

I used with him everyday. Singing. Dancing. Laughing. Sharing Story. Tattoos.

I loved him so badly. Even until every small thing. I did care. I helped him a lot.

Too care.

and boom.

Exploded. Time exploded.

now, what? Should I recall his name? No.

in the end, people have to stand by their self.

Catching their goals.

Finding their mates. 

Whatever.

This time, I learn something from someone, my close one.

"Never love someone up to the max. Unless he/she is your wife, or husband.

Before it happens. Please, use your logic. Not your heart.

(D)

Be a Hero for HIM

Time passes. Clock is ticking. Every day is a new day.
Morning comes.
I'm sitting in my red couch, turning on my music playlist, hearing through headphones. 90's songs.
a cigar, a cup of coffee, with all thoughts in my mind.

I'm all alone. All by myself.
It's a pity ones.

Mom died. Father too. My only one brother has to go in order to fulfill his dreams.

Dreams?
Talking about dreams, I love it. You can imagine everything. beautiful. happiness. joyful.
Snap!
Wake up. This is a reality. It hurts actually.

When boyfriend is a mistake. when I walk in a wrong track.
Friends? Do they know me?
lol.

This is my life. Hard ones. Everyone who know me, told that I'm very stunning. Strong. Independent.
I can walk. maybe I fall down, sometimes. And then stand up again.

and then, that sounds come.
is there someone? no. that figure is only a shadow.

Are you okay? how's life? come back to me. I'll bring a peace and joy.
you were born to be a hero.
Why should I? should I struggling, crawling in this misty forest?
How can I find you?

You are here, finally, right in my heart. Whisper to me "Don't worry son, I'm with you"
Once and always, I proud to be your child.
Having a Mighty God, yes you're.
I'm strong. Why can't I survive?

Simple. Follow His path. Stand up! Wake up! There's no rainbow if the Rain doesn't come.
you know how to dancing in the rain, don't you?

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my favorite Bible verse

Yes. this is my life. God give me this responsibility. Because He already gave me the small ones, and I can passed it.
This one? Of course!

I'm very grateful. for who I am.
I proud. Someday, you will know, this girl, growing up into a woman.
with all her knowledge, patients, and struggle things.
more stronger to face another bad reality.


And you'll say :
"It is her. who I love" :)